Sailing through the ocean blue
Wonderin’ whatchu gonna do
When there ain’t even a port when you get back

Could read me like an old fashioned novel
But it is just so goddamn awful
That you ain’t even gonna pick up the cliff notes

Dialing numbers you can’t speak
Haven’t heard from you in weeks
Did ya forget my digits or did ya drop my calls

A beautiful dancer with fiery hair
Showed me kindness, yeah some people still care
But I feel so lost now and without a home

But there’s a weird sweetness
In not knowing

I couldn’t bring myself to suicide
So now I live in the words I’ve lied
Can’t take them back, can’t take it all back but I will try

And I’ve fucked up and I am shit out of luck
But right when I think I can’t get unstuck
Someone’s always there to slap me with some sense

And I don’t want you to hear that I am sad
That I was hospitalized cuz I hurt myself bad
But once I get my feelings in check I’ll give you call

Sure as hell don’t know where I am heading
And some people say that I am barely living
But this battle of hope and hopelessness is fine for now

There’s a weird sweetness
In not knowing

Sometimes I forget about all the things I have done
Accomplishments and squandered opportunities become one

I must be a fool
My heart has a home

But there's a weird sweetness
In not knowing