You can be yr own god now
You can be yr own true love
You can be yr own god
You can be yr own true love

I still scream into pillows
From time to time
I stopped punching my own face
Cuz I know I deserve love
Just like you, you deserve love
Cuz I like to give love
and I like to share love
and I like to smother and cuddle and snuggle and burrow in love
When I am blind
To all the pain some people put me through
And I lie to myself
That they love me
This is there love
This is there love

You don’t deserve that pain
They don’t deserve your love
You don’t deserve that pain
They don’t deserve your love

Sometimes, we’re blind
Sometimes, we see
But its hard
With uncertainty
Maybe because
of financial insecurity
or maybe its
deeper deeper deeper
somewhere inside
there was a bad seed
that was planted
and it grows
that bad seed grows
into a plant of self hate
self destruction
and it opens a blackhole
to the deepest darkest
depths of space
and it sucks up your love
it sucks up your hopes and dreams
it sucks up everything that
you ever cared about
and then you try to fill it
with drugs and alcohol
and try to fill it
and you try feel okay about
but it doesn’t feel any better

until you dig up that bad seed
you un plant it, get it outta here
just weed yourself
just weed yourself

i love you
i love you, chris
i love you, baby boy
i love you